Praise the Lord, ALL THE GLORY GOES TO HIM. I am 33 and dh is 32. I have three teenage daughters and we have a 16month old son together. In July 2012 we lost our last baby at 3months to a partial molar pregnancy, it was the worst thing I have ever been thru. I was full of anger, frustrated, and envious of other people getting pregnant…which is not like me. Recently I started seeking Gods face again, and asking for forgiveness and healing for my heart. When the Lord started making my heart right, He was so faithful to give us our BFP!! I could not feel more loved by my Provider and Savior!! I gave a inch and He gave a life!!! Thank you Lord!!!
And I just want to apologize ahead of time for tmi!!
Jan16th- bd, Pre-Seed and softcup for 12 hours, temp 98.1
Jan18th- bd, Pre-Seed and softcup for 12 hours, temp 98.8
Jan 19th- positive opks, then negative ones, back and forth all day. Temp 98.92, cervix soft medium and open, nauseous, very bloated, backache, gassy, ewcm
Jan 20th- pos opk, ewcm, cervix soft medium closed (I think, maybe a little open) happy mood, went to church, ovulation pain left ovary, cramps all in uterus, temp 98.77
Jan 21st (CD 17... I USUALLY O ON THE 15TH)- no energy, pos opk, mood happy, cm watery, low headache, ovulation pain, breast little tender, cramps in uterus, no appetite, no sex drive, little bloating, natural progesterone cream, low backache, mucus clear, cervix soft medium and closed, temp 97.82-O DIP!
1dpo- watery cm, cervix soft medium closed, bd- Pre-Seed and softcup for 12 hours, excited, opk negative, medium sex drive, little bloated, acne breakout on chin, mucous clear, little gas, vivid dream about husband, woke up crying because in the dream he was leaving, temp 98.56, natural progesterone cream
2dpo- watery cm, cervix medium height and medium texture and closed, happy, neg opk, high ovulation pain left ovary and in uterus, bad bad cramps (had to lay down), medium energy, insomnia, bloated, acne breakout on nose, chin and forehead (never happens), constipated, low backache, mucus clear, very vivid dream about husband leaving me again with old friend, woke up very upset, temp 98.77, natural progesterone cream
3dpo- water cm, cervix high, closed and medium texture, bd (very very painful, felt like he was hitting my cervix, hurt for hours afterward and even woke up the next morning hurting), medium headache all day, neg hpt and opk test, but opk seem to be getting gradually darker, low nausea, dizzy spells, little insomnia, very vivid dreams about competing with friends and being pregnant. Medium sex drive, bloated, gassy, very constipated, temp 98.94, natural progesterone cream, subway sandwich which I always eat taste bad
4dpo- very tired, sticky and watery mucus, cervix feels swollen from the inside and soft and high and closed, clear cm, headache on and off, neg hpt (shadow lines..one looked positive I had done at 1 a.m., but the rest of them today were negative and the shadow lines, just too faint to say there is even a line, but looks promising!!) opk almost looks positive, they are gradually definitely getting darker every few hours, bad pain in left ovary, horrible cramps in uterus and in stomach, still very constipated even after 4 laxatives!, breast a little tender, pms symptoms, crying easily, insomnia, peed every 3 hours all thru the previous night, little dizzy spell, appetite comes and goes, no sex drive, very bloated, high acne, low backache, little gassy, just feel pregnant! Natural progesterone cream, horrible cramps in stomach all day, took two baths, very nauseous in the evening, temp 98.74, heart palpitation’s, sore sore stomach all day, nothing taste right
5dpo- finally a bowl movement, sharp pains in left breast, nausea, tired, vivid dreams, temp 99.42!!, achy all over, natural progesterone, neg hpt a.m, darker opks, evap lines on wondfos in p.m,egg white creamy cm, cervix very low, kinda soft and closed, irritable, little energy, high insomnia, very vivid dreams about living with ex and his wife raising our daughter together in the finest trailer house ever lol, no appetite, no sex drive, little acne, gas, nephew born at 9:18a.m., happy for them, cry because I want a new baby to add to our family, pray blessing over my brothers family and newest addition, pray for my healing and forgiveness for not trusting God more in this! High back itching, nothing taste right
6dpo- church-cried a lot, temp 99.60..claiming in Jesus name that’s a good sign!!, ewcm…creamy, cervix low closed and kinda soft, sleepy, neg hpt, almost positive opk, cramps, stomach still real sore, noticed left breast hurt during church when 16months old leaned back on me, very bloated, absent minded, little gassy, oldest daughter swears she sees a line on test done at one p.m. today, but I don’t see it, hot flash at 1:p.m., woke up with indigestion, hmm 3p.m. shadow line on wondfo/ I have to tilt it, turn around three times and do a dance to even see the shadow! Lol, trying all day long to convince myself that I ovulated two days later like my temps show, giving all this to God, have already took 9frers and about 40wondfo test since about 2dpo…mad at myself for wasting so much money, hoping the progesterone cream is helping, scared I may be jacking with hormones that don’t need to be jacked with, enjoy time with kids and remind myself that many people have life so much worst than I do, Praise God for my three beautiful teenage girls and for my precious miracle son who is so smart and handsome(16months old), wonder why my stomach is hurting so bad, left ovary hurting and left kidney hurting. Burping, high back itching, ears itching, nothing taste right, very very irritable in the p.m…..freaking out on everyone including the dog…. reminding myself over and over how blessed I am and to calm down, roller coaster ride of emotions today!! Cervix in the p.m. lowest hardest than I have every felt, last cycle at 6-8 dpo it was high and closed!!
7dpo- cervix unreachable and soft, vivid dreams, heartburn…had to break out the tums, hpts shadow lines on wondfos feeling hopeful, boobs feel heavy and full, constipated. Although did have a small bm this morning, stomach still hurts, tired of waiting on my bfp, begging the Lord to not make me wait another whole cycle, trusting in His timing. Ewcm, cervix burning when I touch it?? Opks very dark, cervix lower in the p.m., natural progesterone cream, gas, medium irritability, forgot to write down temp
8dpo- vivid dreams, cervix medium height, medium texture, closed, temp 99.42, little ewcm, sleepy, neg hpt, almost positive opk, sharp pains thru breast, breast feel full, no energy, extremely hunger, craving chocolate, very bloated, gas, food don’t taste right, natural progesterone cream
9dpo-(30th)- hardly any symptoms, figuring I’m out, neg hpt, still dark opks, sleepy, 99.4, breast have moments they hurt, mostly on left side, sad mood until church which was awesome, little ewcm, no energy, dizzy spell when I got out of bed, very bloated, low sex drive, no acne, cervix medium height, no gas, cervix feels kinda hard, closed, p.m. hpt very dark pink evap lines, food don’t taste right, urine has strong smell, natural progesterone cream, if not pregnant this cycle then next cycle I’m fasting for a month from all things about getting pregnant, bowls loosened up
ALL THE LINES ON ALL THE PREVIOUS TEST WERE EVAPS... IT WAS OBVIOUS WHEN I STARTED ACTUALLY GETTING POSITIVES...BEWARE OF WONDFOS.. THEY ARE THE FIRST TO GIVE YOU BFPS BUT THEY HAVE HORRIBLE EVAPS, AND TO GET A BFP EARLY YOU HAVE TO WAIT A FULL FIVE MINUTES TO READ THE TEST
10dpo-(31st)-dark pink evap lines on hpt at 15minutes, test dipped in water totally white even after 15 minutes, little pain in left ovary, feel very optimistic, prayed and cried all day for friends trying to get pregnant, little pain in left breast, nipples look bigger, stopping progesterone cream tomorrow if no positive hpts, small cramps in uterus, feel a lot less crazy after talking to another women trying to get pregnant after a loss(turns out I’m not the only neurotic one, lol!), temp 98.24…feeling very discouraged! And then WHAT WHAT WHAT!!!-6:00P.M. LIGHT POSITIVE ON WONDFO…start looking at other test thru out the day and realize they all had the faintest of faint lines on them…. AND THEY ARE GETTING DARKER EVERY TWO HOURS!!! Sit in bathroom floor and cry for 30 minutes…only show 15 year old daughter..and she lays hands on me and prays for me and the baby. Can’t sleep, waiting on the next morning to test. After the faint positive, I start feeling distinct pain in left ovary and realize the twinge I felt in my uterus earlier today was not my imagination. Get light headed when I get out of the shower at 8:00p.m…from 6-9 take 6 test…each a tad bit darker (guess the temp drop might have been implantation dip!)
11DPO-YAY YAY YAY WOKE UP TO BRIGHT PINK LINES ON WONDFOS AND FRER!! STILL HAVE NOT TOLD HUSBAND… I PRAISE GOD, IT WASN’T UNTIL I GOT MY HEART RIGHT AND SINCERELY STARTED PRAYING FOR OTHER MOTHERS WHO HAD EXPERIENCE LOSS AND MY FRIENDS WHO WERE TRYING TO GET PREGNANT. WHEN I ALLOWED GOD TO MAKE MY HEART RIGHT…HE GAVE US OUR BFP!
SEEK GODS FACE GIRLS, ITS HIS GOOD WILL TO GIVE US THE DESIRE OF OUR HEARTS AND TO MAKE OUR HEARTS RIGHT!!! I AM PRAYING FOR ALL OF YOU!!